Goodbye ...

Just back from a quick trip to Los Angeles ... I'm quite glad that I decided to make this trip since I ended up just in time to see my godmother (who's also my aunt) before she rested in peace ... although maybe I should have gone earlier when her condition was better.

Regrettably I feel that I have never really gotten very close to her that we can have "heart to heart" talk about all things since she went to US when I was very young (I believe soon after I was born) ... so I only started to know her through the years I spent in the US starting 9th grade. She's never been the warm and "chatty" type ... but I know that she's always very happy when me and/or my brother visited.

When I saw her at the hospital ... so fragile and weak ... and likely in pain ... I felt quite helpless and hoped that the suffering would end soon. I last visited her on Wednesday morning ... not sure if she even knew I was there ... and then got word when I got home in the afternoon. At that moment, I somewhat felt relieved or even comforting to know that she's in a better place ... and only a few days later on the way back on the plane that it finally sunk in and felt the sudden loss.

Wish her great happiness wherever she is now ...